We eventually arrived in Koh Tao after all the excitement and waiting to finally live the paradise dream. After we took our first steps off the ferry, I felt like I couldn’t walk any further. My mind and muscles were exhausted from the sleep deprivation and the fact we still had a half hour walk to achieve from the pier.
We discovered the nearest 7 eleven grabbed our ham and cheese toasties and took the plunge to start the walk. This was harder that I assumed but it was completed. We made it to Revolution hostel. I walked in with a beaming smile and sparked a conversation with two Staff members who were eagerly engaged to maintain a conversation. They were so pleased we had chosen revolution as the place to stay. Once we had checked in, I intrigued them that much as a guest they offered me a position as a party rep. One lesson I learnt from this opportunity is that when traveling you should never plan ahead. I had made plans elsewhere, but I wanted to stay where I had discovered this new way of life. I decided to have two nights as a guest to make sure I wanted to go through with this exciting job. I took the position, moved into the rep house, and said goodbye to Carlos, the boy I followed.
Whilst living on the other side of the world, I was lucky enough to create some life long friends. There was one particular girl that was able to make me smile and laugh at every waking moment. We were so lucky to have each other’s support. It was very much a sisterly love I will never forget. I also created a strong connection with a South African queen. She would come and find me everyday to have a quick catch up with a cigarette talking and updating each other on life and what this island has to offer us. I miss them.
Fast forward 8 weeks.
Secluded on an island with friends and enemies. An island I wasn’t even planning to visit. An island that takes 20 minutes to drive from one end to the other. It was like a small town but so disconnected from the outside world. I was in love. But love can destroy you and make you lose your purpose. So I had to escape.
All I’ve done is party, drink and lose the reason why I came traveling. I lost my passion slightly whilst being on Koh Tao. This island reminds me of casinos, easy to enter but hard to find the exit. You can’t find your way out. Everyone seems to get trapped here, even guests extending their stays continuously. I know of one guests stayed for 3 weeks after planning to stay for 3 days. Since living and working on the island I’ve learned so many life lessons through people I’ve met and experiences I’ve had. I would not think the way I do now without these life experiences. So, I know this island was part of my journey. I have definitely met some friends that are life long and they know who they are. Now I can say I’ve lived and worked on a remote island in Thailand for 2 months. Can you?
I will be back. When my head is in the right space, I see it as my second home. I love the feeling of safety and security I have there. But traveling to me is all about seeking discomfort. I haven’t felt this feeling on Koh Tao. So wish me luck. I’m going to find it again.
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